Intuition is real and comes from a place of deep knowing. Some call it their ‘God voice’. Intuition shows up in a gut feeling, an ache in the chest, or a voice in our head. When I ignore it or shush it and proceed with decisions based mainly on my desire for comfort and immediate gratification, it usually gets louder, Eventually I look back at the situation and say, "Oh, I ignored you again - damn."
Many times in my life I’ve been pointed in a different direction or warned by my intuition. There are times I’ve paid attention and adjusted my path, but more often I’ve ignored or brushed aside my gut knowing. My Veruca Salt persona steps in (you know, the bratty girl on Willy Wonka) – “But, I want it and I want it now!!” And, I try harder and harder to have my way while I shush my ‘God voice’.
“It’s all in your head”, Words I’ve heard too often throughout my life, most specifically in intimate relationships when I have a gut feeling something isn’t right. I’m intuitive, I’m empathic, I know what’s underneath the seeming reality of a situation and I can say this with certainty at this point in my life. There are still times I doubt myself and abandon my knowing. Each time it hurts me and eventually makes me angry at myself and others.
I’m angry for hearing my intuition, sometimes very loudly and repetitively shushing it or believing, “it’s all in my head". I’m angry for feeling victimized, and possibly being victimized and not standing up for myself.
My intuition shines a light on situations I try to ignore, jabs me in the gut when I’m hurt and pretend I’m not, and attempts to guide me in new directions. I long to trust this knowing, trust myself, and have my back. Here is the guidance I received when asking, “What will it take for me to listen?” during a painful time:
Answer 1. Immediate gratification is not your answer. If you want something badly it doesn’t always mean it’s the best direction for you. Pause and hear your inner voice and trust. Shush Veruca!
Answer 2. Do not treat yourself in ways you wouldn’t treat a loved one. I would never say “shhh, just ignore it”, if my daughter told me she had a strong gut feeling something was wrong. NEVER. Treat myself as I treat my loved ones. Love myself and respect my intuition.
Answer 3. Do not be cruel when you ignore your intuition and things don’t work out as you would have wished. This is nobody’s fault. These times are simply a result of barreling down a road you knew in your gut may not be right or safe for your best interest and you did it anyway. It’s cause and effect, choices, results. Simply the way life is.
Answer 4. Trust yourself first. You are your best advocate. Sure, you’ve made mistakes in the past and you may have self doubt poking you in your back, Partner with your inner voice, take time to choose wisely and stand strong in the truth that you alone know what’s best for you.
Answer 5. If something you’re doing is giving you anxiety, the ick in your gut, or pain in your chest, stop doing it. This is integrity and following your inner light. When I look back on my life, everything I continued to do even though I knew it wasn’t right has caused me great pain – sometimes immediately, sometimes years down the road, but always without fail the result is great pain when you ignore your inner beacon.
Answer 6. Love is the answer. Love yourself, love your intuition, love the people around you who are simply doing their best even if they are living in the dark. We are all on the same journey, just on different paths. Just as I don’t have to be on your path, you don’t have to be on mine.
Honor your intuition, honor your inner knowing, honor the loving voice of God within you.
This is great Kelly. Keep it up!